a decision.

decisions are important.

what you decide on is what you let yourself happen to yourself. did you get that?i did.

so i reached this decision in life.important one.critical.life changing.colossal.
significant.

so this decision..its hard.it involved a lot of opportunity costs.it always does.one always has to face trade-off.

its like this.i face a very hard path in life..a fork even in the road.i thought if i go this way, i wudnt know the other path and the other road after that.i guess we all go through this-

right now actually i dont feel like talking about it..

its something like this:

i resolved that i will focus on whats happening now.i will wait.i will do what i have to do and accomplish it.i will not push on anything, but rather go with anything smoothly.

whatever it might be.

i will of course show interest. i always do.i always did.
but i wont push.i'll wait for it to come.eventually it will.

so..

im here again.
so what.

ive been absent and my fans require my divided attention.haha

so just what have i been doing?what have i been actually doing?moreover, am i just doing or am i actually accomplishing what im doing?

well this week has been rather..different for me..complex.

yes, that tragic.

monday was great.it was a start.i know mondays are usually the more sober, dull days but now im inclined to disagree.i find myself looking forward to MWF.something happened.

accounting.

tuesday was show and tell day for comm and ofcourse the tragedy of math.

accounting

wednesday was yesterday and it was a continuation of what had started. again i was glad. sadly, though, this had to be ruined by the Quiz of all quizzes...nevertheless, i enjoyed this day and found myself, again, looking forward to friday. good things happen to those who wait.just wait.handle the wait.wait, its really hard to wait.

accounting.

thursday was what had happened today. by today, i mean the past energy-less hours that led to now. this, of course, included the tragedy of math. how terribly horrible.

i look forward to tomorrow.

may it be good.

may it last.

i just thought

that this was funny.

i am obliged to take a break whenever i want to. wherby, whereas, whereof etc etc etc.
(article jordan)

its very interesting learning law, but not at all interesting trying to read it with interest.was that right?i dont think so.or is it?im not sure.

anyway.

so i have been reading this law book on obligations and i actually learn from it - well at least to the point that i think im learning.

but its more of being 'enlightened' on laws and obligations really(those that relate to me of course)

so there.
article jordan.
i just thought it was funny.it was my ym status kanina.

i learned...

3 things today.
3 very importnat things.

number one.
i learned that accounting is stressful.that, actually, is an understatement even.if there's this word for that word that I dont know, which is the understatement for stressful, if ever there IS such a word, that would definitely be it.

number two.
always prepare for ANYTHING. In my case, this would have to be the rain. it WAS going pretty well during the morning, well not until the spurs lost anyway, and then it rained during the afternoon.

perfect timing as ever - it rained just after doing accounting too. symbolisms? i would have to agree. its a sign. actually, it was raining already while we were doing accounting.

it must have been a sign.

number three.
now this would have to stand out. why? because.
it goes something like this..i learned not to push things..well to NOT force something out of somebody - out of people.

okay fine, out of this personl.actually, im not even forcing.

let's ask then.

today was..

something else. It was seemingly something else.

i was enlightened on a truth, illuminated by reality and was glared upon by the harsh reality of the truth. yes, it got pretty bright.

well, at least bright enough.

so just what was this blinding beam of destruction?
i can tell you it got very bright.well bright enough to transcend my eye limitations. ive bad eyes you know.

well, it hit my like a rock i guess.yes something like that.i didnt even see it coming. all of a sudden it slapped my left shoulder and casually presented itself - lets be friends for now.

more of a 'hi' actually, but still the implication.

a temporary implication.

wala

may pagmamahal ka nga
ngunit nasaan ang sa kanya

may boses, gawa at salita ka nga
pero nakikita nga ba

naghintay-hintay ka pa ngunit mukang ubos na
may pasikat-sikat nga subalit para saan pa

may tuwat at sigla ka pa
may pag-ibig ba talaga o wala..

lets be..

intellectual about this.or pyschological..or even philosophical.

first off, whats the point?okay, so youre given a space - this blog - space to write, space to express, space to share, to boast even or to be proud or to think otherwise that youre actually proud of something.

so you write.

you go on and so does your writing. you write some more and you notice that youre actually more than just a few sentences of nonsense and a few more sentences more than a paragraph.

and so i'm here and i've achieved nothing near to something senseless.

i miss someone i guess..horribly.

may patula-tula pa

may patula-tula pa,

' di naman niya nabasa

baka pa matulala ka..

para san pa?

a moment

droplets of rain echo the days events.
they quiet the soul and help me remember.

and then this moment reflected upon me.
a moment i would never forget, a glance i'd forever regret.

it was so attractive
so elegantly graced in style.

beauty, i said, was this
"hello.." as i walked with her and "goodbye" as she went.

on a shot at humor

okay, first one was a mistake.
Hey eveyone makes mistakes. If everyone possess the ability to NOT make a mistake, then i would'nt be making this at all.

haha...okay that was my first shot at humor.it was supposed to be funny.well, at least aimed to make me smile at it...or others to smile at it or enjoy the joke.If ever there was a joke or something humorous about it.

2nd shot..that wasnt funny at all. Again.

okay, ive realized that im not good at this humor thing. If there was such a thing as an ice-breaker to brake the "ice", id be the ice-container-breaker.

Im sorry, did that make sense at all?i wonder.

on a shot at humor

sadder it goes..

sad
sadder
saddest.

yes, sadder it goes is how it is for this summer.well, whats left of it otherwise.really.

ive had summer class till the last week of may. after that, i had about 2 weeks of what they call 'whats-rest-of-your-summer-vacation vacation'. if you didnt get that, im sorry.well, i just made it up actually.

anyway. im still doing this.

This.

and im still actually doing this.
how sad.

more of me

yes more of me. so far, ive been putting more of me into this..thing..this blog. ive realized that i have more posts now. a la lang.

im still bored i guess.

1 week before school's left..how fun.