skitzo

Psychology says im a skitzo.
We were "tasked" to draw a person on a piece of paper. That was the only instruction.

"Draw a person." he said.
So I did.

According to him, upon asking (and the whole class went silent when i asked), 100/1000 who drew stick figures of people on their pieces of paper - were skitzo's - exactly what I have drawn also.
No clothing, detail and anything else but 5 sticks and a circle drawn together in a way it would resemble a person.

Yes, the truth that i am indeed special has been revealed.

Ive had thoughts that i was, in my own unique way, "special" actually. There were times where I would go on a demented rampage and there were also times that I was normally sane and there were and are times that i would sound very redundant and be abnormally boring.

Sometimes, though, in between these "times", i would act perfectly normal.

Apparently, i cannot upload the picture of this stick-figured man.
Too bad for him.
All he is to humanity is a symbol for insanity and i cant even upload his picture.

Come to think of it, i act normally with people. I converse, socialize, eat, play, sing, create art, sleep, watch tv, be lazy, type stupid blogs with aspirations of becoming a book among other things.

What makes me crazy?

A number of things that i want.

Okay here is a list of things that i want. I dont know what made me venture into this train of thought where i would be thinking about things that i want. I want to have a lot of things i dont need and i tend to want some more. I want to want more.

Theyre just thoughts. Theyre just what i want.

So, I waaaaannnnt:

1. Good grades. Especially in the most horrendous and dreadful subject of All, Calculus.

2. Better grades - especially in the most horrendous and dreadful subject of All, Calculus (coz i know that my grades wont be good, so i want them to be better)

3. The most possible "good" grade that i could ever have in Calculus.

4. An infinite supply offffffffff......good food.

5. An infinite supply of reserve if my infinite supply of good food runs out.

6. A new car. Preferably a nice sports car.

7. A new phone - a better one

8. A new camera - also a better one. (so i can print and sell my pieces)

9. An infinite supply of acrylic and canvass. ( so can paint and sell them)

10. Definitely a new computer. The latest one. A computer that could accommodate all my technological needs. All of them. Yes, it has to be insanely fast.

11. A lot of money. Preferably in pounds..because..of..

12. Emma Watson so that..

13. I could visit her in London so we could talk and bond for a very long time so that..

14. she would like me and eventually fall for me.

15. Control.

16. the ability to fly and speak different languages and read other people's minds.

17. All these things to happen. Conceivable.

18. My idealist side of me to stop wanting things.

19. My want-ist side of me to stop being selfish.

20. There are a lot of hungry people in the wrold who needs my infinite supply of good food.

21. And my reserves.

22. Things that i can never have. Ever.

23. 2 more things.

24. 1 last thing.

25. i thought that i just had to reach this number when i was writing 21.

Emma Watson

So is that really her name or just some pseudonym someone, or probably even her, made up? It doesnt really matter..well..at least it does'nt matter here. But it does actually..i mean, what is her real name if its not"Emma Watson" ?

So anyway, Emma Watson.

She's this adorably cute british/english girl who has this adorably cute british/english accent. Just what do you call them really, British or English?Just a thought.

She's also this great and famous and still adorably cute movie star in the film Harry Potter.

She's definitely attractive.

And I also like her character in the movie adaptation of the books.

Woah.



So, London? Anyone?

Thinking out loud.

I think the world is running out of water.
I was taking a bath then.

I think the world ate enough chicken and there arent enough chicken wings, or thighs, or drumsticks.
This restaurant ran out of them upon ordering.

(you know how all those restaurants and fastfoods have chicken?exactly my point)

I think there are enough cars in the world.
i was stuck in traffic then.

I think there are just too many books and useless books almost everywhere.
i was reading my accounting book then.

I think and fear that we are running out of steak.
I was eating at a buffet then.

I think there are too many cockroaches everywhere. And rats. And mice. And flying cockroaches. And leeches. And worms. And maggots. And disgusting looking insects.
Then i hammered a cockroach.

I think that some people are not meant for some people.
..........

And then i thought..i was just thinking then.
Just thinking.