on the month i turn 19

okay.19.ive spent 19years of my life already and i feel its just starting now. they say life's supposed to start at high school, but then i start to think that i was an infant during high school - so difficultly young.

no really.

but maybe, its the fact that ive grown so much in college. now. For the past year and a half, ive learned and grew and realized so many things that i have needed to all this time and it only came now. thats why, this august i feel so old. old that ive learned a lot, grew, realized some things, pondered and contemplated on more and actually thought on the things i do and say.

and ive been especially thinking of this..umm..sensitive area of my life..that, well, invovles someone.

so there.
It is August.
and i am turning 19. im growing old.
and older.
and older.
and, hopefully, taller.
and after that..maybe, just maybe, i'll get lucky with this person.

there are..

a lot of things to blog about..

friends..school..friends in school..friends in school who affect your life..friends in school who affect your life at home..and..well, you get the pic.

then there are emotions..thoughts..ideas..misfortunes and mishaps and regrets..
then there are also qualities..qualities you like in a girl..qualities you like FOR a girl..qualities you would want to have for this girl..

you can also blog about the government..people in the government..what the government is doing..what THEY think THEYRE doing..

and then theres this entire paramount area that encompasses everything just for the self.
to blog about the self.

perfect.this could be my foreword for my book.haha..
someday, when i run out of things to do, i would compile my entries and make it into a book.

brilliant.

angry

i just did this really long entry..tas hindi siya napublish.kailangan mag refresh ng page then it wasnt there anymore.it just wasnt.

i am..

bored. i never had a day like this for the past 2..3..weeks??8-10 days..somethings..amiss.really.i dont know why.

good thing theres this blog.come to think of it, what is a blog worth?what are a bunch of words on a monitor that are supposed to mean something? - see?did that even make sense?

sense. its very..sensefull..haha..senseness?..the words sense has a lot of sense.diba?do i make sense?brilliant.

i will talk about my day then.i first rode off with my mighty-tank-of a van. Casually driving at a fast rate not pummeling over anyone with the car's big wheels, i arrived just on time, perect with a parking space just for me in school.

then school happened along with all the things that happen in school.

then something else happened that i didnt think would happen.

and then now im bored because theres surprisingly nothing to do.no work.no accounting.no readings.
*sigh*...no accounting..*sigh*

On a group of people merrily walking through accounting.

On my block rests a blocked group of people. It harbours the greatest sense of belonging.really.
Its great to actually belong to a group of people who you know would accept you for whatever and whoever you are..(moreover for whoever is your quasi-famous-tragically-similar-brother)

And, for me, its fulfilling to actually be here - to experience what we share, what he have, what we do, what we strive for and what we work for together.

Sure we have our mistakes, sure we have our superficial bliss, sure we have our lil 'egos' and lil selves, but that's whats fulfilling about it. Even though we are what we are, and we do what we do, and we laugh at we laugh at, for us, this is what its all about. And i enjoy this.

Its a "quasi" contentment, really, to have a group of friends like these.
I celebrate their existence. Our existence.
Onwards to accounting.

Country Country..

(shuffles and deals to three people)

One..Two..Three...
"UNITED ARAB EMIRATESS!!!"

(gets the cards with a frown)

One..Two..Three..
"PAPUAA NEW GUINEEAA!!!"

(smiles and grins and laughs)

One..Two..Three..
"The LORDOFDARINGSDAFELOWSHIPOFDARING!!!!"

("cheater!!cheater!!")

One..Two..Three..
"EDWIN"
"JORDAN!!!"
"JILL!!!"

(pounds on the table..)

One..Two..Three..
"SABRINADATINAGEWICH!!!"

One..Two..Three..
"BUFYDAVAMPYRSLAYER!!!"

One..Two..Three
"THAT 70's SHOW!!!!"

One..Two..Three..
"BUFFYDATINAGEWITCH!!!!!"""

(laughs hard...still laughing..gets up the table and waves..)

..and is still laughing..
happy are those who understand. =)

The brain..

9:48
Our brain is so complex. That means were smart.
Did you know that our brain can process upto thousands of bits in a sec?about 100,00+ even. THat means were smart.
9:48:20
Compare yourself to a computer..to how many process it makes in seconds. That means were faster.
9:48.30
Really, think about it..let your brain process all those thousands upon thousands of bits..into megabytes..think..about words..about units..about what youre seeing right now.
9:49.12
See?it works..you stimulate your brain..you exercise it, enhancing brain functions and thinking.
9:49.34
And i just processed.I just wrote.I thought and exercied my brain.and so did you.
9:50
galing noh?

Why?

is everyone, all of a sudden, into blogging?
moreover, in Friendster.
"youve got 10 new mail messages" it says.
all of them saying, "Ive updated my friendster blog!!check it out".
or something like that.
maybe its a friendster thing.
its good though. were now being more expressive.
its good for the country too. GMA didnt have any problems in doing so.
The people even.ERAP even. An they didnt even have to blog in friendster to say what they had to say.
No one does.

The true marks of an Atenean.

1. character.
2. wit.
3. intellect.
4. humor.
5. beauty.
6. The ACET.
7. Your first math11 midterms.
8. Your first math11 3rd long test.
9. Your first math11 finals.
10. Your first math19 test.
11. Your second math19 test.
12. Your first ma19 midterms.
13. Your 3rd and 4th ma19 calculus tests.
14. Your ma19 midterms.
15. Your ma19 finals.
16. Your first accounting quiz.
17. Your first accounting long test.
18. A pile of scratch paper and 10 ballpens, 10 more which you have lost.
19. 10+ papers.
20. 10+ reports.
21. 10+ presentations.
22. 10+ more hours of study everyday.
23. 10+ more conviction.
24. 10+ more determination.
25. have i mentioned these just happen in 3 sems?

......

accounting IS the ULTIMATE UNNATURAL LAW of the universe.

this is not a claim. this is not a fact. this is not even truth.

accounting is just the ultimate unnatural law of the universe.
it just is.

there is nothing like..

seeing your brother (tragically-quasi-ly-related-significantly-similarly-looking-renowned and famous-christian bautista) on tv doing drama.

he's supposed to be called lorenzo, a child mute, who, somehow, through some magical way, grew up to be this *ehem..ehem* handsome singer/some-handsome-dude-who-sings dude and falls in love with a girl named.

so anyway, i saw him, and it just made me laugh.